Purpose and Passion

Have you seen that video where some crazy kids take a Mentos and drop in a bottle of diet Coke? Well, if an egg in a frying pan is your brain on drugs, then that footage, that Mentos in diet Coke, is my brain on life- true life. This is my life on Purpose and Passion

However, it feels like I am constantly at the pre explosion point, perpetually waiting for the combinations of life to meet, combust, and release in celebration.

I think that it is called joy. I think that this feeling is the feeling that one has when they are simply on the right road. It is a feeling of excitement.

My brain wants to confuse it with how it is connected to the future, what does this feeling mean to my future? Does it mean that great things are about to happen? Because, it feels like they are.

No. I have realized it does not mean that great things are afoot. It does not mean I have done the right things and am about to be rewarded as my brain would like to think it feels.

It means that I have, and continue to, act accordingly to my purpose and passion, and this feeling is the reward. Great things aren't about to happen, great things are happening.

I keep thinking that I am waiting for the outside world to make me right, to confirm me.

But, when I realize that this feeling, this explosive joy, is of what is, not what is about to be, well... it makes things different.

Do I want that publisher to come around and say "we love it! Let's go"? Yes, yes I do. But this feeling of joy isn't connected to the possibility of that happening.

This feeling of joy is...

I shit you not.


mantra: excitement